The Devil

The greatest evil is physical pain. Saint Augustine

 

The greatest evil is physical pain. Saint Augustine

I’ve wanted to do a picture depicting a fight with pain. It’s something that a lot of people live with every single day and I am part of the group who deals with pain on a daily basis. There are some seriously strong souls in the world who deal with this struggle every single day. It’s not easy.. In my own personal journey, I’ve learned to really look towards those people who struggle like myself or worse with a high amount of respect. They’ve taught me to be a better person and really how to deal with my own evil demons that I fight every day.

In the major arcana, the devil card represents the negative forces that restrain you. It’s the fears, addictions, and impulses in each of us. We have the power to over come them, but the devil controls us–when we allow him to. Much like this card, pain can control our emotions, when we allow it to. We have the power to breath and take a minute for ourselves. We have the power to over come pain by allowing positivity in our life, recognizing the pain but not giving it the power to control our emotions and behaviors. It’s easy to lash out at people, when you’re in pain. It takes strength to walk away, when people upset you, rather then unleashing your anger on the people around you. The people who are around you will ultimately be the ones that you’ll need on your hardest of days. So you can’t let the devil completely beat you, rather you have to fight its power with your own. And I am lucky that medical intervention may be able to help me fight.

I’m lucky in the sense that I have a chance at beating my pain with surgery. I’m bringing this up because I will be scheduling surgery soon. And I will be away from my blog for a little while. I will inform everyone of that information, as soon as it is available to me. But for now, in the evening, I am usually fighting the good fight against it.

In the past few months or so, my own pain has knocked me down. It has stolen my time. It has stolen my emotions. It has stolen me completely. In the above photo, it represents the evil that is pain. And I am fighting it in a losing battle. The thing about chronic pain is that sometimes you don’t beat it. You just call a draw at the point of exhaustion. Then you wake up again and deal with it all over again. It’s draining, frustrating, and infuriating. I do not wish physical pain on my worst enemy. It’s bigger than I am. It blinds me to reason and steals my voice in the haze of medications. I could never put into words the true evil that pain is. It is indeed a fight with the devil.

Every person fights their own demons. This one is mine. It is second life in which that I can artistically create an image that depicts exactly how I feel. That girl is me.. that skeleton is my own hell on Earth. I know that many, many, many people go through there own battles to include pain. In banding together, we lose the empty room and find others just like ourselves. This picture is dedicated to every person with their own demons who fight them every single day. You are not invisible. And… you’re not fighting alone. My picture doesn’t show the people behind me, fighting alongside me. BUT, they are there. Keep fighting the good fight.

Now to help me fight the good fight, some very wonderful designers created some fantastic things. My skeleton is from a previous gacha by clueless. My dress is by Eliavah, which is available at the crystal heart fair. I waited to blog this for a little while because getting into the event was difficult. I really do love this outfit. My stockings are from Blueberry and my boots are available at !Rebel Hope’s mainstore. Finally, my hair is from stealthic, which goes by the awesome name of Sensual. My pose is available at this round of the Pose Fair by Bauhaus Movement. I can not gush enough about Eliavah’s awesome work and Bauhaus Movement’s sick poses. If you’re interested in any of these items, please check out my credits.

Before I end this, I want people to know that I take drugs in the evening. My pain has increased. So I’m asking everyone to please have patience with me. My thought process is slowed and I’m not always at my best in the evening unfortunately.  Thank you.

Be kind to one another.

Cheers,

Violet xoxo

Credits

Boots–!Rebel Hope –Gossip Mesh Platforms by Rebel Hope
Blindfold with pins–.Shi. & Messiah –Lazarus by Joy . החמְשִׂ 石毓文 (joy.laperriere)
Mouth Harness–Shi. & Messiah –Lazarus by Joy . החמְשִׂ 石毓文 (joy.laperriere)
Dress- Eliavah –Everbloom Dress by e l i a v a h ღ (eliavahazaleia)–Crystal heart fair July 2018
Claws–{CX}–Shredder Claws–by Cᴇʀʙᴇʀᴜs (kamayari)

 

Decor/pose

Skull–Curemore–Gashadokuro by kaori domínguez (kaorinette)
Pose–Bauhaus Movement–Kunoichi Blades prop by LouLou Hill (loulou.teichmann)–Pose Fair 2018
backdrop-Minimal -Hell back door by Ørs (ors.quan)

The Sun

 

 

Every parting is a form of death, as every reunion is a type of heaven.  Tryon Edwards

Every parting is a form of death, as every reunion is a type of heaven. Tryon Edwards

I’ve been meaning to blog for a few days now, but I spent some time building this set and dealing with some real life health issues. BUT today is the day! I woke up to feeling as bright and sunny as this picture. So I knew it was time to edit this photo of myself and a friend of mine.

Because my time in second life is sometimes very chaotic, I always contemplate the time spent away and together with the people around me. When I came across this quote, I knew that it was perfect. It’s exactly how I feel. It’s always sad to have to spent time away, but it’s always such a joy to come together.

I was able to do a photo shoot with a good friend of mine Cuore. She owns a pose company called Cuca Designs. Her poses range from sweet couple poses to the naughtier side of things. I highly recommend her poses, if you enjoy taking those types of photos. She’s also a cool chick. Don’t cross her though. She has claws. I saw them and everything. Okay, okay, okay, okay, I didn’t see her claws, but she did tell me about them. If you’re interested in her poses, please check out Cuca Designs.

Moving along, I chose this particular scene, because I love the beach. I love the feeling of sand between my toes and the ocean sea breeze, sweeping through my hair. I’ve had so many fond real life memories of enjoying myself at the beach. I just had to create a photo, depicting fun in the sun. But you can’t go to the beach alone, you always have to bring a friend. It’s like a rule or something. Alright, it’s not a rule, but I always like having someone along for the ride. And my friend decided to come along with me. I’m really thankful for the time that we shared. Just like real life, I now have the memory of taking this wonderful picture.

Sometimes it’s really hard to move past things. And long ago, I had made a decision not to take pictures with other people in my blog. But sometimes, you change your mind or life changes your mind. In this case, it was my friends who changed my mind. You see this world can really bring joy to people in the simplest of ways. And who am I to deny someone a pleasant memory and a really good time? Or even to allow myself to have fun and make memories? I knew that taking this photo would do just that. Ultimately, I didn’t want my stubbornness to stop me from enjoying myself in this world.

Life can really make you want to hide away. We all go through things that effect us. And I won’t lie. My experiences have made me seek a hiding place. But you can’t hide forever. If you wear your heart on your sleeve, it can be even harder. I’ve gone through a lot in the last few months and I wanted to hide away. I didn’t want to talk to anyone. I didn’t want to interact with people in any world. It’s funny how life works though. When you don’t want that interaction, the universe will throw those opportunities at you–almost laughing while it does. In short, this picture means a lot to me.

Sometimes heart break can make you close yourself off.  I’ve done it in all worlds. But I can’t do that…not now, especially now. When you go through rough things in any world, sometimes you need people around you. They help heal you. They mend the broken parts. Friends can do that for you. Pain does break me. But it didn’t break me that day. So today, I saw the sun.

In the major arcana, the sun card is an image of optimism and fulfilment, the dawn that follows the darkest night. Having struggled through the shadow sides you now know yourself and know where you are heading, and the sun illuminates your path. My personal deck has a picture of a child naked. He’s free with nothing to hide. And neither do I… So I will speak of the darkest nights of pain or the burden it places on me. But the sun does shine, after the hardest days. Second life helps me to see the sun with a friend, even if I don’t get to go to the beach this summer. In a way, I already did. And I even had great company too.

On that note, I really want to thank a specific designer who reached out to me. I adore this designer and their creations. My wallet weeps every time I see something by them, because I am bound to buy it. I was going through a really dark day and I had a designer reach out to me. They gave me a virtual hug, which made me tear up. Thank you ++half dear++

In that sun card like the child, I have nothing to hide. I miss people sometimes. I miss the way things use to be. I miss a lot of things in second life and real life. But I know that the sun will shine again. The clouds will part, if you let them. You live. You learn. You make mistakes. But mistakes don’t define who you are or who you will become. I would never have learned those lessons without the friends that I have today. I’m very thankful in a lot of ways for my sl world.

And finally, I can talk about this whole fabulous set. My bikini top is from Erratic and available at Collabor88. You have to hurry though. This round will be ending soon. Cuore’s bra and panties is from one of my favorite events Uber. It’s also by one of my favorite designers (and yes I do have many favorites), Mossu. I’m totally addicted and in love. The jewels are fantastic. And also another favorite event of mine opened up, The Arcade!!! The umbrella and the inner tube are both from Astralia and they’re both gacha prizes. So head on over and try your luck at the machines!! If you like any of the above products above, please see my credits down below.

Much love,

Violet XOXO

Credits

Me

Hair–Doux –Natti by Dᴀᴠɪᴅ Cᴏᴏᴘᴇʀ (dam1710)
Bikini top/bottom–Erratic –Brooklyn by erratic (erratic.rain)–Collabor88
Sarong–!Rebel Hope –Mesh Sorang by Rebel Hope
Glasses–Murray–Marion Sunglasses by Olivia Murray (oliviamurray)–no longer available
Necklace–Zaara –Shairi by Zaara Kohime
Hat–Glitzz–Summer Hat by ℒϊssค βØЋм (lissa.bohm)

 

Cuore

Hair: Truth Ari – black & whites -Truth Hawks
Nails: –SU!– Livana Bento Nails 12 (VISTA) COMMON

Glasses: Rowne Glamor sunglasses black – by Couleur Latoe
Earrings, Nose & Chin Piercings, Necklace: .Aisling Karishma Gacha Set – by Druunah Esharham
Arm accessories & bracelets: .Aisling Eunice Gacha Set -by Druunah Esharham
Rings & hand jewelry: Mel0 Rings&Bracelets V5 by Olem
Foot jewelry: Zaara : Raksha Anklet *gold* (for Maitreya/Slink) by Zaara Kohime-

Lingerie: Mossu – Angelic.Bra – Black & Mossu – Angelic.Panties – Black by Stephen (akirakiyoi)  @ Uber May 2018

Sand Body Applier: Izzie’s – Body & Face Beach Sand (Maitreya/Slink/Belleza/Catwa/Logo/LeLutka/Omega)  By Izzie Button

Furniture
Pink Floaty–Astralia –Water World Inflatable by Astralia–Arcade June 2018
Umbrella–Astralia –Water World Umbrella by Astralia–Arcade June 2018
Anchor beach towel–Sway’s –Lanai beach Towel by Sway Dench
Pink flip flop-Dust Bunny–Flip Flops by Noel Bunny (lxlnoel)
Straw bag–Milk Motion–Woven Straw Bag by Marie Lauridsen–no longer available
Pillow–Dust Bunny –Summer Picnic by Noel Bunny (lxlnoel)
Floral bag–Dust Bunny –Beach Towel Tote by Noel Bunny (lxlnoel)
Beach towel with lotion–Milk Motion–Beach Towel with accessories by Marie Lauridsen–not available
Picnic basket–Dust Bunny–Summer picnic basket rare by Noel Bunny (lxlnoel)
Stripped bag–Dust Bunny –Beach bag chevron
Beach Tent–Stockholm&Lima –Little Beach Fort–Under the sea by ѕуяυρ ωαn кєnσвι (surrealia.anatine)
Out door shower–Chez Moi –Outdoor Shower by nanda Marjeta
Surf board–!bang–Surf board by Poses (trieste.minuet)–no longer available
Backdrop–Foxcity Poses–K-Pop star 2 by Satomi Masukami–gacha item

 

Poses–Foxcity Poses –Lucid and Self by Satomi Masukami