Dead End

 

Dead End

“I left the ending ambiguous, because that is the way life is.” Bernardo Bertolucci

No, I’m not leaving. I want to get that out of the way, but it’s funny that not all endings are indeed endings. In a way, most endings are beginnings. In my experience, it’s really true.

Speaking of endings, I love this quote because well I’m not a fan of any ending. I like ambiguity, in all of its lovely forms. I spoke with a friend of mine today. I’ve known her for many, many, many…..well not that many years. I’m not 100 years old, after all. I thought the friendship had ended long ago. Then one day, it started up again. We’ve experienced similar things in life, which not many would understand. It wasn’t an ending. It was a pause. I share this story, because I think some friendships can do that from time to time. Everyone needs time and space for personal growth. So I’m fine with an ambiguous finale. And I’m going to leave that thought in the air to hang.

Now moving along, I think it’s time to talk about the outfit above. I bought this really sexy corset dress from Tres Chic and pair it with a jacket from Romp. I visit Romp every time it opens and I have a tendency to pick up a few things from Tres Chic. They have some really nice items this round. I think people should check out both. I’m wearing the makeup from Studio Exposure called Tumblr girl. I highly recommend this store. I adore them. I paired it with a gacha item that I found on the market place. I absolutely adore these boots and wanted them in black. They’re called Criminal Police Boots. I know there are some still available via the market place. If you like them, check it out.

Before I go, I want to mention Ironwood Hills, which is a wonderful spooky little sim. I’ve gone there many times for pictures. I thought it was time to capture a memory there and mention it here. If you’d like to check out the clothes or even the sim, look down below at my credits. Thank you for reading my thoughtful musings.

I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend or what’s left of it.

Be kind to one another.

Violet ♥

Credits

Head–LeLutka –Simone by Thora Charron
Body–Maitreya –Lara by Onyx LeShelle
Eyes–Buzzeri–Okina Eyes by Bugs Amelia Bryant (eleri.catlyn)–(unavailable)
Hair–Truth–Lisette by Truth Hawks
Boots–Zenith –Criminal Police Boots by 喵 仙 人 (miffyhoi.rosca)
Dress-Elegance Boutique *EB*–Corset by Elagantia–Tres Chic
Jacket–Gabriel –One Shoulder Riders by Takuya Jinn–Romp
Ears–Mandala –Taper Ears by 菊之介王子 (kikunosuke.eel)

Makeup–Studio Exposure –Tumblr Girl– by Ashi Kezenn (ashamti)

Ironwood Hills

Love Thyself

 

Love Thyself

 

“To love means loving the unlovable. To forgive means pardoning the unpardonable. Faith means believing the unbelievable. Hope means hoping when everything seems hopeless.” Gilbert K. Chesterton

I think the hardest thing to do is learning to love yourself, every inch of good and bad. I’ve spent so many hours thinking about this. I’m only one person in the world, but I think that loving yourself is one of those things that most people spend their whole life learning. We grow and change over time. I’ve done a lot of personal growth in a two month period. Maybe I can share a bit of fashion and personal growth in this blog. Maybe I can even convince a few of you to say something nice about yourself in the mirror.

This month, I am working on loving the unlovable, forgiving the unpardonable, hoping when it seems hopeless, and having a bit of faith in the eye of the unbelievable. Life is really all of those things–maybe not all at the same time though. Second life can help you through real life bumps and bruises, and sometimes it may be the cause of them. However, it’s important to remember this quote. Love really does mean doing all of those things. Maybe you went through a bump or two and found that person to love you through it. It’s important to have those people, whether they are friends, family, or even lovers. It’s such a wonderful thing to walk with others, in times of turmoil–that truly is love.

I wear my emotions on my sleeve. I’m emotional and I never hide it. Sometimes that’s a good thing and sometimes it’s bad. But I have love in my heart for people. I’m flawed, but I care about people. I’m working on giving the same amount of love and care to strangers….but to myself. Remember to love yourself, when you feel unlovable. Forgive yourself, when you feel unpardonable. Have a little bit of faith, when everything feels unbelievable. Have hope for yourself and your life, when things seem hopeless and dark. It is the greatest gift you can give yourself–to love yourself. Because you can in return give that same love back to others. It’s one of the most beautiful circles in life–love.

Speaking of love, I am loving Collabor88. I love this dress by Zenith. I can’t gush enough about this latest round. You really do have to go and see it for yourself. There are so many wonderful events popping up around the grid. When things calm down a bit, I’m going to try and get into Rewind. Man, there must be some great finds, because my teleport always says full. Eventually, I’ll get there.

Oh a side note, I’ve been struggling with my online second life feed. It’s a bit temperamental. There are times, when it says failure to upload. I’ve written a ticket to linden lab and they put my name on a list of others dealing with the same issue. I’m keeping my fingers crossed to post normally.

Now, I’m off to edit a few saved pictures and set up my new, not dying computer. I hope everyone has a good weekend.

Be good to one another ♥

Violet XOXO

Credits

Body–Maitreya–Lara by Onyx LeShelle
Head–LeLutka –Sophie by Jaden Art (jadenart)
Dress–Zenith-Spring Casual Dress by 喵 仙 人 (miffyhoi.rosca)–Collabor88–location
Necklace–Noir –Peace Necklace by N O I R (noirstore)–Collabor88

 

 

 

Nostalgia

Nostalgia--Photo By Matzukaze Balestra

Photo By Matzukaze Balestra

His Flickr

His Blog

“Nostalgia is when you want things to stay the same. I know so many people staying in the same place.”  Jeanne Moreau

First and foremost, I can not take credit for this wonderful and fabulous photo. My good friend Matzu ended up taking this picture for me. I am eternally grateful for his help in the creation of this post. He’s wildly talented. I’ve adored him and his pictures for a very long time. Without him and his amazing photography skills, this post would not exist. My computer is slowly dying on me. So, I am currently waiting for a new computer. I should be back to taking pictures and blogging hopefully within 5 to 10 days. I am impatiently waiting. I miss taking pictures inworld for my blog, flickr, and second life feed. All of those activities are a big part of my second life.

When it rains, it pours. Or at least, in my life, it seems to be the case. I came down with a nasty cold and my computer is having massive issues. I’ve wanted a new computer for a very long time. I have broken usb ports, and issues with it reading the NIC card. Now, everytime I try to post a picture to my desktop second life crashes–rather my computer can’t handle it and shuts it off. To say, I’m over it would be an understatement of the century. But sometimes, you have to go through things to be stronger.

Speaking of going through things, it had me thinking of the past–in  second life and real life. I’ve been living in a bit of nostalgia lately. I have desperately wanted things to be the same as in the past–in all of my worlds. It’s a tough pill to swallow, moving forward. Sometimes, you need that moment to look back at the wonderful memories one creates. I’d actually like to take a minute to reminisce.

I’m going to start with second life, because this is my second life blog after all. I have two great friends who have been my world in second life, since the creation of Violet. I have not gone a day alone in second life. I have always had people surround me. Some would say that I am very lucky. They would be right. I will always remember flying around on a broom in my dome with my best friend Kira, on a crisp fall day. I will always remember using an animation with the Baywatch theme song with my equally good friend Matzu. Oh, how your names have graced this blog so many times with so much love and adoration in my heart. Every time I wear a black dress, I think of my friend Kira. It is her uniform after all. Every time I see a fox in any world, I am reminded of my favorite kitsune.

I remember so many wonderful things. I will never forget the times spent laughing, usually at my expense. For I was a noob, when I met these wonderful people. I didn’t know how to go into transparent. I didn’t know how to adjust body parts. I didn’t know how to do a lot of things in second life, which provided many laughs with my friends. I miss those times. I didn’t have a flickr page with a ton of followers. I didn’t have a blog. It was just me, my avatar, and really great friends. They taught me everything that I know about this world. In time, they became my own shield and sword. They stood up for me not just here, but in all worlds. They became a VIP in Violet’s world. So for that, I will always be indebted to them.

Those warm and fuzzy memories remind me of a softer, kinder, and gentler time with real life friends buried in my past. I adore summer. I like to feel the warmth of the sun grace my skin and the beads of sweat rolling down my arms. It reminds me that I am alive and here. Summer brings back memories of ice cream trucks blaring silly songs in the air. Children running and screaming with glee. The smell of chlorine permanently ingrained in my clothing. Careless days with no responsibility pass through my memory like a leaf falling in the wind. I remember walking endlessly with friends, jumping in pools with not much on, and ice cream a permanent staple as a dessert. I remember loving people fully with my whole heart. I remember those adolescent friends shaping my entire being. I would not be who I am with out them. They touched my life in every possible way. I am thankful some of those same people still remain in my life to this day.

Just as those friends touched my life, my second life friends touched my life in very important ways too–differently, but equally important. See in this world, I was able to learn lessons that may have never happened. Some lessons led me to this very moment and to this very blog post. I realize that sometimes people become staples in your life. It would hurt too much to lose them. Yet in life, we always lose people. Relationships end. People pass along in this life. People grow and move on, which is good–but hard. I don’t deal well with those situations. Things never stay the same, despite how much we wish it to never change. No matter how much things change in this virtual world, I hope that my virtual friends know how much I love and care about them. I don’t always express it, because well that’s hard for me to do.

No matter what happens in this life time, I want those people to know how much they mean to me. You only get one life. You should never wait to tell someone how much they mean to you. Even if those friendships run their course, love never dies all at once. If it does, then that person never loved you to begin with. I learned that lesson a long time ago. I met a friend for lunch, after many years of not talking. She expressed her love and compassion for me, even when she was angry at me. That friend taught me the most about love. I would not know what love feels like without those important friends. So I place friendships in high regard. For I do not know love without them.

In honor of those happy times at beaches with wonderful people in all worlds, I took this picture with two great friends. I love them greatly and hope they know how much they mean to me. I bought this great bathing suit at the latest and most fabulous Uber event. It’s by one of my favorite and go to designers–Erratic. It’s called Leffe and available in multiple colors. I chose this wonderful turquoise hue. I paired it with my Posy hair from truth to add a soft touch. If you like this bathing suit, you should check out Uber for all the latest summer fashion finds.

Thank you for reading this really long blog post and sticking with me. I hope you make warm beautiful memories of your own. Find the people that you love in life and hold on. Don’t take a second of it for granted. Cherish it. I’ll be back soon posting pictures and, before you know it :).

All my love to friends

Violet XOXO

Credits

Bathing suit–Erratic –Effe by erratic (erratic.rain)
body–Maitreya –Lara by Onyx LeShelle
Head–LeLutka — Simone by Thora Charron
Hair-Truth–Posy by Truth Hawks
Skin–DeeTalez–Jolie by deetalez.com (steffi.villota)

Spring

 

Spring

Part of the problem is how little we understand about the ultimate betrayal of the body when it rebels against itself. You always worry about charlatans. We found that specialists did not know as much as we thought.
Charles Bronson
I hope that everyone had a wonderful Easter!!! I know that it has been awhile, since my last blog. I have a good reason. I promise. This week I came down with a cold or allergies. In the midst of medical tests, I feel ill–very, very, very ill. Unfortunately, residents have messaged me and I have missed their greetings. I’ve taken some medication and I just feel plain wore out. This time of year, I usually deal with some type of sickness. I’ve been under tremendous stress both in real life and in second life. I really want to have a good day, but alas I have to wait for my good days.

As a result of everything, I found this quote by Charles Bronson. I have to say that I can relate. I can’t breathe. I’m wheezing. I’m taking medication on top of other medication. In the end, I’ve slept all day. So please bear with my slow and moody blogging days. Eventually things will get better, right? They have to. I’ve hit my emotional and physical rock bottom. The only place is up–hopefully.

Despite my body betraying me, this month has been excellent for shopping and finding a new SL home. The epiphany just opened up, as well as the pose fair. So I am completely broke after shopping and paying tier. However, I am totally okay with that, because I was in some desperate need of retail therapy. I headed over to the epiphany and won this beautiful dress by Zenith called a Spring Vest Skirt. I won the color in sky, which I normally don’t wear. I really like it though. I paired it with some fun hair from a previous hair fair and some of my favorite Izzie’s makeup. Voila, I had the perfect Easter/spring look. I also did a little decorating. I moved inworld too. I was pretty proud of my decorating skills, so I decided to snap this pick at my house. Sometimes, you just have to move inworld. I really needed a big change.

Moving on to other important inworld happenings. Maitreya had some really exciting updates!! There was an update for the Maitreya body, Lara. The body now comes with Bento hands. I am so incredibly pleased with mine. While I like the hands from Vista, I have a lot of nail polish appliers that I’d like to use with my Maitreya body. So if you haven’t updated your maitreya body, I highly recommend that you do. It’s so incredibly worth it.

Okay, my loyal readers, this is where I leave you to check out my credits. I am off to put myself off to bed.

Be good to one another.

Violet xoxo

Credits

Body–Maitreya –Lara by Onyx LeShelle
Head–LeLutka –Simone by Thora Charron
Hair–LeLutka –Dallas by Thora Charron
Dress–Epiphany –Spring Vest Skirt by 喵 仙 人 (miffyhoi.rosca)–epiphany
Lipgloss–Izzie’s –Daphne Sheer Lipgloss by Izzie Button
Eyeshadow–Izzie’s–Daphne Eyeshadow by Izzie Button
Eyes–#adored –Nova Eyes by Walton F. Wainwright (faust.steamer)

Rose

Rose

 

“Thousands of candles can be lighted from a single candle, and the life of the candle will not be shortened. Happiness never decreases by being shared.” Buddha

In the past few weeks, I’ve thought about happiness. It’s a subject that always plagues me a bit. How do we find it? What does it look like? How do we keep it, once we find it? In any world, we seek it. My happiness may look different to another. What works for me may never work for the person beside me. And some people struggle with it by no fault of their own.

I’m talking about happiness today because I think second life can bring happiness to those who need a bright light. You never know a persons darkness, but you can decide not to add to it. Be the flame that helps others and not the howling wind. Maybe I write this as a reminder to others, but maybe…just maybe I write this blog as a reminder to myself too. We all need a reminder now and then.

On a lighter note (see what I did there 🙂 ), I found this bright and colorful dress at the latest Collabor88. I really adore it. It’s by The Secret Store and called the sylva dress. It comes in array of color options, if pink isn’t your thing. I really like Collabor88 and look forward to it every single month.

Usually, I never mention furniture in my blog, but I really have to mention this bed. It’s by one of my absolute favorite companies–+Half Deer+. They created this wonderful bed called the Dreamrose Princess Bed. It was featured two Collabor88’s ago. I waited to put this bed up, but I really shouldn’t have. I absolutely love it. I see myself using it quite a bit.

Speaking of things from past events, my skin is from the previous skin fair. I always see skin from YS&YS, but never pick it up. This year was different. I decided to pick up some new skin. One of the things that draws me to SL is the ability to change my look–from clothing, hair, and skin. I like being able to change once in awhile. I have freckles, which is nice. I decided to give up some land and vacation at a beach house. Sometimes you need a change of scenery for a new perspective.

Find your happiness with the people who surround you. Be kind to one another. And know that no matter what happens on the roughest of days, tomorrow is a new day and there’s always an opportunity to find happiness.

Okay, I’m drifting, so I’m going to wrap this all up with credits and put my weary self to bed.

Be good to one another

Violet xoxo

Head–LeLutka –Simone by Thora Charron
Body–Maitreya –Lara by Onyx LeShelle
Hair–LeLutka –Dalia by Thora Charron
Dress–The Secret Store –Sylva Dress by Melee Totally Not Nayar Oh (maylee.oh)–C88
Animation–LeLutka — Anime TNG Set 002 by Thora Charron
Eyes–#Adored –Nova Eyes by Walton F. Wainwright (faust.steamer)
Skin–YS&YS –Elena by Monicuzza Babenco

Bed–+Half Deer+–Dreamrose Princess Bed by Halo (halogen.magic)

 

Patience

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“How poor are they that have not patience! What wound did ever heal but by degrees?”

William Shakespeare

I’ve never been one to have much patience. I blame technology. Everything is available at the click of a button, these days. When it comes to matters of health or even the human spirit though, the option to heal at the click of a button isn’t really an option. It takes time. I’m dealing with both at the moment. My posts are reflecting how I feel. Even inworld, I struggle. I’ve mentioned chronic pain in previous posts. I stopped taking medication to control the pain. As a result, my mood has not been great. I’m also dealing with other things at the moment. I’m asking residents just to be a little patient with me.

In the next few weeks, there is a chance of surgery. So I may end up taking a short break from the virtual world to heal those parts of me that are hurting. Fear not though loyal readers, when that day comes, I’ll let you all know. The recovery time is extensive so I have no idea how long my absence will entail. BUT, this will heal me and take care of that pesky pain, which I’ve dealt with for almost two years now. I’m hoping for approval right now from doctors.

In addition to health, I’m not sure that my time in second life will ever be the same. I’m not sure, if I’ll ever be the same again. I need patience inworld and in my real life at the moment. It’s not the easiest. I’m struggling with all my worlds. So maybe that break to heal my broken body will also help a cracked heart too.

Meanwhile I’ve been watching a show to help with some of that down time.  I linked an episode of Steven Universe that reminded me to go through the motions of my feelings. A dear friend got me hooked. I have to find my happy to be okay–especially with surgery. Recovery is long and painful. There’s also a lot of work to be done afterwards. But I know this will give me some quality of life back. I also need time to heal from sl stuff too. I’ll figure out how to heal eventually. Okay enough talk about all of that……onto the picture at hand.

Now, I want to talk a little bit about my outfit. I went shopping with my shopping buddy Kira. We both found this wonderful outfit from Villena called a lace up skirt and V top. There are many options available. You can find it at this month’s Uber. I have to say this round is excellent, so it may require a little patience to get there. It’s worth it though. For more styling info see the credits below.

Be kind to one another and I’ll try to do the same.

I’ll be around 🙂

Cheers,

Violet

Credits

Lace up skirt–Villena by Kambi (villena.swansen)
V Neck Top–Villena by Kambi (villena.swansen)
Hair–Rowne –Salon Sanna Hair by Fashionboi Landar

*My picture seems to be having issues. I’ll try to fix it later.

 

 

 

Time

 

 

Time

 

“It is during our darkest moments that we must focus to see the light.” Aristotle

I really hope that everyone is having a good start to spring. It’s one of my favorite times of the year, because I know summer and warmer temperatures are right around the corner. I could use a bit of both. I hope others are planning fun things for sunnier days. I know these past few weeks haven’t been the happiest on my flickr–or even in my blogs. I haven’t been in a good place, so I returned to real life. I reminded myself of all the things that are the most important to me. I think that’s important. Virtual worlds are wonderful, but there are times when things can become difficult. There is something to be said for a good meal in a restaurant and a day of walking around.

I thought a lot about my time in this big/little virtual world. I made a home here in a way. The friends have left impressions on me. I have left impressions on them too–sometimes good, sometimes bad. I am deliciously imperfect and full of flaws. I’m not saintly. I’m not perfect. I’m full of folly–like most people. I’ll be the first to admit it. Once, I had a very dear friend of mine in real life who told me every person you meet battles demons. Both her parents have now passed from alcoholism….way before their time–and no she is not an sl resident–just a very dear rl friend. She taught me a lot about mistakes, going through dark moments, redemption, and finding the light in every special moment that graces your history. I’ve been so incredibly lucky that my sl story had good friends surrounding me, in my most darkest and vulnerable of moments. I’m even luckier to know people in my real life who have guided me through some tough things also.

I think about time, because I grapple with it. How I spend it? Where I spend it? Who  I spend it with. And what it means to me. I don’t value time the way that I should. I don’t even come close. I’m spending my whole life learning how to respect–myself and other people–which takes…time. It all comes down to time in real life and second life. How we spend it defines who we become. Our friends become reflections of us. Our goals are shaped by what we do. I always say time is precious. It really is. It took me a lot of thought this week to realize that I don’t regret the relationships that I’ve made in any way. Each person who has crossed my path has taught me something by giving me their time–both good and bad…..and everything in between.

Whew, okay those are my heavy thoughts. Now onto the important stuff, I stopped by the skin fair and changed up my skin a bit, but I stuck with DeeTalez. I love their skin. I also found this wonderful lingerie by Erratic at this month’s Collabor 88. You may have to hurry though. The end of the month is nearing and the next round is right around the corner.

Before I end this…. I want people to know one thing. Your darkest moments never define you. You are more than your worst day–in all worlds. Thank you to my real life friend for reminding me that I am more…so much more than a few bad days. Thank you to the residents who touch my life as well.

Be kind to one another and I’ll try to learn to do that more each day too. 🙂

Credits

Head–LeLutka –Simone by Jaden Art (jadenart)
Body–Maitreya –Lara by Onyx LeShelle
Ears–Mandala –Simple Ears by 菊之介王子 (kikunosuke.eel)
Nails–arcade–Spooky Salon–Thirst–at the arcade this month
Hair–Clawtooth –Giselle by Bubbles Clawtooth
Lingerie–Erratic –Priscilla by erratic (erratic.rain)
Eyes–IKON–Charm Eyes by Ikon Innovia
Skin–DeeTalez –Claudia by deetalez.com (steffi.villota)