Christmas Blues

 

 

Christmas Blues

 

“If you look into your own heart, and you find nothing wrong there, what is there to worry about? What is there to fear?” Confucius

I’ve had a roller coast of a ride these last two weeks. I’ve had happy moments in second life and hard moments in real life. It can definitely feel like a roller coaster ride. Sometimes in the dead of night, you start to worry. But like Confucius said, if nothing is wrong with your heart, then you have nothing to worry about or fear. He was right, but then again…Confucius was the one who said the quote. I can’t disagree.

In the last week, I’ve had my article published in Squeeze! magazine and I’ve been accepted by Eliavah to join their blogging team. All these wonderful things are happening in the world. I’ve had moments of great joy, reflecting on all of those wonderful moments.

Yet in all those great moments, I’ve had some really difficult things go on in real life. Then again life is full of roller coasters. They call it a ride for a reason. There’s ups and downs–and even a few sudden curves. I don’t always talk about those curve balls that real life throws at me, but they are there.

Sometimes, you have to tell yourself that you can do anything, so you can handle the curve balls of life. This also applies to second life. Just when you think you have everything figured out, it will suddenly change on you… mesh bodies, blog support closing, or even trying to get used to a new group inworld. I wish all real life curve balls were as easy as second life, but it’s not. And you have to go with the flow. I am always learning to just go with the flow. It’s a life long journey.

I’ve had a lot of changes happen in the past few months. It leaves me a bit blue. Sometimes I fear the unknown in regards to health or worry about those who are closest to me in my real life. Everyone around me is having a hard time. So I trust in my heart to over come worry and fear. But sometimes you have to be reminded that you have the ability to over come worry and fear. So I linked this Sia song to bring strength to those who need. Life can be hard, but you really can do anything.

Be Kind To One Another,

Violet XOXO

Credits

Ears–Mandala –Simple ears by 菊之介王子 (kikunosuke.eel)
Head–LeLutka –Simone by Minnu Palen
Hair–Doux–Iggy–by Dᴀᴠɪᴅ Cᴏᴏᴘᴇʀ (dam1710)
Earrings–Eliavah –Midna Earrings–by e l i a v a h ღ (eliavahazaleia) –Winter’s Hollow Dec 2017
Eyes–IKON–Charm eyes in Sky by Ikon Innovia
Body–Maitreya –Lara by Onyx LeShelle
Boots–Phedora –Evelyn Boots by Celena Galli
Dress–Rebel Gal and Ec Cloth –Gia Latex Dress by Jourdan McMillan (jourdanmcmillan) and CharliXCX-IWannaBeWithU (niocean)–Uber Nov 2017
Coat–Foxes –Faux Fur Coat by Tyr Sinister (tyr.rozenblum)

Pose–DB Poses –Happy Girls are the prettiest by Denny Ballyhoo (denny.ballyhoo)

Eye shadow–Veechi–Romy shadow by Aiubrey Snoodle— Uber Nov 2017
Lipstick–Izzie’s –Shimmer Lipstick by Izzie Button–Tannenbaum 2017

available on the marketplace

Location–Oh Deer

 

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Sugar Plum Fairy

Sugar Plum Fairy

 “The whole point is to live life and be – to use all the colors in the crayon box.” RuPaul

 

I’ve had a lot of time to think about life this week. I wasn’t going to type anything, because I’ve been dealing with the death of my grandmother. Despite her passing, I wanted to say thank you to a group of friends that have been there for me this week. I wouldn’t feel as good as I do without you.

The reason that I chose to type up a blog is because I owe a couple of people a big thank you. Many don’t know but I have a friend Pixie who named me as the style editor for her magazine. I’ve been working hard on my first article. I’m really excited to share that with everyone in the next week. Again, thank you pixie for keeping my mind occupied this past month. I really needed it.

I’d like to thank people who have messaged me this week. I’ve been very lucky this week. I had strangers behind keyboards make me laugh or make me take a stroll through a snowy sim. It was exactly what I needed in that moment. I haven’t been calm this week, but I found calmness through friends in all worlds–and family. So thank you again.

 

Now, at the same time, I’d like to give an apology in the same breath. I am very sorry, if I have not seemed myself lately. I have dealt with estranged family, which has not been easy and my grandmother’s passing. Talking to family for the first time in 10 years brings about its own kind of stress. As you can see, it has been quite a bit for me in my personal life. These last few months, I’ve been very reflective in my blogs and this has been the cause. When people have cancer, it’s not just the person who has it. It is the entire family who has it. I’ve stepped into roles that I haven’t been in for quite some time and it has taken a toll on me emotionally. Despite all of this, after the holidays and some down time, my happy talkative blogs should return back to normal. Until then, my blogs may have more pictures and less chatter. Thank you for your patience at this time. And thanks again to the people inworld helping me to see a little bit of light.

Big gigantic hugs ♥♥♥

Credits

Head piece–LODE–Bougainvillea by Chirzaka RV (chirzaka.vlodovic)
Hair–Mina–Chantal by MINA (mina.nakamura)
Dress–Belle Epoque by Janire Van Belle (janire.coba)–Arcade Dec 2017
Shoes–Reign–Ballet Flats Knee by KENADEE REIGN (kenadeecole)–Arcade Dec 2017

Pose– DB Poses –Peace is always beautiful by Denny Ballyhoo

 

 

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Life is essentially a cheat and its conditions are those of defeat; the redeeming things are not happiness and pleasure but the deeper satisfactions that come out of struggle.

F. Scott Fitzgerald

I’m going to get right to the point. KINKY! I bought my brown dress from the Kinky event. My friend Alisha and my mystery man over there is wearing a harness and underwear both purchased from the kinky event. Alisha’s hair and flogger are both from Kinky!. If you like any of these items, I highly suggest visiting this event. It has become one of my favorites. I look forward to it every month. If you want more info about the clothes, hair, and whip, please check out my credits below.

I know this blog is very short. I’m not exactly myself lately and I’m a little distracted. Focusing is a little tough. My grandmother passed away this week from stage four lung cancer. so my blogs may be very short. If my avatar is logged online, I can not guarantee that I am behind the computer. Thank you for your patience at this time.

Credits

Violet–me in the middle

Hair–Truth–Ari–by Truth Hawks
Dress-Asteria –Gia by kathrine Asteria by kathrine Asteria–Kinky Nov 2017
Eyes–IKON–Charm–by Ikon Innovia
Nail Polish–Alme –Summer glam by Chloe Electra (chloeelectra)
Ears–Mandala –Steking5 by 菊之介王子 (kikunosuke.eel)

 

Pose–RK Poses –Faded fantasy by Neva Crystall (nevacrystall) (((side note, Animare was used to modify this pose. It is not exactly as pictured)).

 

Alisha–Blond on the left

Hair–Limerence –Abby hair–by Kirusik
Pantie and bra–Scandalize –Melynda by Yani Pariz (yanikka)–Kinky Nov. 2017
Head–Catwa –Lona by by Catwa.Clip (catwa.clip)
Body–Maitreya –Lara by Onyx LeShelle
Skin–Lola–L’etre — by David Cooper (dam1710)
Eyes–L’etre –Real Eyes by Dᴀᴠɪᴅ Cᴏᴏᴘᴇʀ (dam1710)
whip–Meva–whip by Mea Carnell……. Kinky NOV. 2017

 

My Friend B

Body–Belleza–Jake by by Tricky Boucher
Hair–stealthic –Like Lust by Hunter (stealthic)
Harness & Underwear–Gabriel –Lace up briefs & Harness by Takuya Jinn …..Kinky nov. 2017
Head–Catwa — Daniel by Catwa.Clip (catwa.clip)
Ears–Mandala –Steking5 by 菊之介王子 (kikunosuke.eel)
Eyes–IKON–Triumph by -by Ikon Innovia

 

 

Selfie

Selfie

 

“Take care of all your memories. For you cannot relive them.” Bob Dylan

I took this picture up above, while laughing the entire time with a friend of mine. While smiling and having fun, I thought about how those memories are so important. You never get those moments back, but they’re imprinted there in memory. I live for those moments with belly laughs, till you almost cry. I smile a bit more, when there’s fun to be had. Those little moments are so very important in living. It’s also really easy to forget that they are worth more than gold.

I think about the people on the other end of a keyboard sometimes. I read in someone’s profile that you should leave others feeling better, when you walk away–than how you found them. It’s important. I think. Their profile is s right. There’s hidden stories beyond the keys. Your happiness and joy that you inflict on others can lift people up and help them to move along in those waking moments of real life. I’ve been really lucky on my journey in sl to find people, even now, who have lifted me up, when I was down. I’ve made some great memories. Tonight definitely was no exception. I had a lot of fun taking this picture. And I’m so thankful. I needed some laughs. Who doesn’t??

To continue on with the good times, I took my happy and laughing self to District 20. I bought this blazer and head piece from GizzA, which is called Nightspot–available at District 20. I took this picture in the wee hours of the night, so it’s fitting in so many ways. I also got this hair from Collabor88 from Spellbound—Netherworld. You will have to hurry though. Time is running out, before the next round of C88 opens. I hope that others have a night full of joy and laughter. We all deserve a little laughter in our lives. It’s good for the soul.

So bring a friend, go shopping, and check out District 20. There are some amazing things at this event. Also before I forget, be sure to join the group to get a small discount on all of your items.

As always, be kind to one another.

Violet XOXO

Credits

Head–LeLutka –Simone by Minnu Palen (I’ve been misquoting this for awhile. I am so sorry to the creator.)
Ears–Mandala –Season 5 by 菊之介王子 (kikunosuke.eel)
Headpiece, blazer, body mesh–GizzA–Nightspot by Giz Seorn, available at District 20
Eyes–IKON–Charm Eyes by Ikon Innovia
Body–Maitreya –Lara by Onyx LeShelle
Eyeliner–Veechi–Matte Winged by Aiubrey Snoodle
Lipstick–Veechi–Velvet Creme Lipstick by Aiubrey Snoodle
Nail Polish–Alme.–Summer glam by Chloe Electra (chloeelectra)

Pose–DB Poses–Weekend Trip–available on the MP

Hair–Spellbound–Netherworld by Kohana Xue

Male

Body–Belleza–Jake by Tricky Boucher
Tux–::GB::–Chain Lock Tux by Takuya Jinn
Head–Catwa–Daniel–by Catwa.Clip (catwa.clip)
Ears–Mandala –Season5 by 菊之介王子 (kikunosuke.eel)
Eyes–IKON–Triumph Eyes by Ikon Innovia
Hair–Stealthic–Like Lust by Hunter (stealthic)
Skin–Stray Dog–Lewis by Gac Akina

Quiet Contemplation

Quiet Contemplation

“The ultimate value of life depends upon awareness and the power of contemplation rather than upon mere survival.” Aristotle

As a kid, I did quite a bit of contemplating. Then as I got older, I did more doing and not a lot of thinking. It was always a laundry list of things to do–go to class, laundry, work, dishes, cleaning, shopping, and….well you get my drift. It’s easy to get lost in the hustle and bustle of life. Second life can sort of be like that too, if you keep yourself busy. It gives you time to fill up spaces that need covering up in the mind–like bad memories. This week seems to be particularly rough. I suspect the holiday season sort of influencing moods around the grid. The hustle and bustle doesn’t really allow for those quiet moments of solitude.

In the corners of my mind, I think about significant things that have had an impact on my life. Second life has some dusty corners in there too. But if I’m completely honest, it is not the pixels that plague a mind in the wee hours of the night. It is not the ghosts of second life pasts that plague and haunt me. It is the hustle and bustle of real life.

Sometimes it’s easy to forget that behind the story boards of a pixel world, there is a life beyond the hardware of a computer. Our real lives can touch every bit of ourselves. Not every faceless person exposes the inner depths of their soul to complete strangers. As a direct result, residents are sometimes impacted by the lives untold stories. It’s easy to forget the narratives that we don’t share with residents. A blog post, a title, a quote, or emotion planted on the second life pictures and blogs may not tell a whole story, but yet only a part. In my last post, I talked about perception. It’s easy to perceive the actions of others as only being the direct result of the virtual web we cast upon the thing called second life. Although sometimes our virtual world inspires a picture, blog post, or social media update, it’s the silent real life story untold, which becomes our muse–silently in those virtual paintings.

In the last six months, I’ve had deep thoughts about what the meaning of life is. Or to be precise, I’ve thought about the meaning behind my life. I’ve had many misconceptions and premeditated ideas of who I am as a person from others. We forget about the waking moments, which don’t include a glow of a computer or the use of wiring for communication. It is our real lives that have direct solid impacts on the non virtual body–a doctor’s visit, a real life hug, or even the view of human emotion in front of us rather than told behind text or captured in a headphone. Life has been omnipresent in my virtual life. My real life untold events away from the keyboard have impacted me and other residents. My attention isn’t always here on the grid. It can be misconceived as ignoring others, when I’m really just stuck in my own thoughts.

I’m sorry that I am not always present inworld. My mind wanders and my body fatigues. I’m not always infront of my computer. I lay down and fall asleep–or forget to log out. I seek out wild and scandalous stories and adventures. Or I seek out a new friend to talk about the new clothes coming out at the next event. I share a moment to help another. It is kindness that allows me to be strong. It is kindness that I seek, because in the end… life is not easy. It’s hard and complicated. Sometimes pixels and stories make us strong to get through life’s wrenching and difficult times. We forget those untold stories influence our virtual paintings.

To help me paint my virtual self in my own imagined image, I went to Kustom9 and played the Zenith Gacha. The oversized comfy sweater is called oversized hoodie and the boots are called winter mid leather boots with socks. I also won bear bow earmuffs from Zenith. The only part of this outfit that was a little difficult is the earmuffs don’t quite cover my ears and the they stick out a little. But other than this small issue, I love this outfit. I also headed over to rewind and bought this beautiful makeup by Veechi–a company that I adore and seem to always buy. Finally, one of my favorite hair companies–stealthic created this hair for Kustom9 called Lithe, which has some amazing textures. For more details, please check out my credits below.

Be Kind To One Another,

Much love Violet XOXO

Credits.

Earmuffs–Zenith–Bear Bow Earmuffs by 喵 仙 人 (miffyhoi.rosca)–Kustom9 Nov. 2017
Hoodie–Zenith–Oversized Hoodie in Rose by 喵 仙 人 (miffyhoi.rosca)–Kustom9 Nov 2017
Boots–zenith–Winter Mid Leather Boot with Socks by 喵 仙 人 (miffyhoi.rosca)–Kustom9 Nov 2017
Tights–Izzie’s–Heart Tights by Izzy Button
Eyeliner–Veechi—Pin Up Eyeliner–by Aiubrey Snoodle–Rewind, November 2017
Lipgloss–Veechi–Monroe Lipgloss by Aiubrey Snoodle–Rewind November 2017
Pose–DB Poses –You Should be here by Denny Ballyhoo–available on the marketplace

Hair–Stealthic–Lithe–by Hunter (stealthic)–Kustom9 Nov 2017

 

Into The Dark

Into The Dark

 

The moon looks upon many night flowers; the night flowers see but one moon.
Jean Ingelow
I know this isn’t my usual amount of blogging.  However, I’ve been planning this picture for weeks. And I was really excited to take it. A good friend of mine Kody Myers has a photography company and I really wanted to take his picture. I also want to promote his photography company. I always believe it’s important to support each other, rather than knock each other down.
I’ve been so excited to do this photo because I very rarely pose with people. I would like to practice posing with others and taking pictures of other people rather than myself. So it was so wonderful, when he agreed to put up with me :). He was ever so the gentlemen and I really appreciate it. He is also a very talented wedding photographer, but he’s interested in taking clients for profiles. His name inworld is Kody Meyers. Here is his Flickr, if you’re interested.
Okay, now I want to switch gears and talk about the quote up above. It reminds me of perception. It’s how we see something differently than others. I have thought so much about perception in the last few months. I talked about it with other residents too. I have a friend whose style is completely different than my own, yet we appreciate being different. Seeing things differently can be almost calming. If you go through a tough time in life, those who see something in one light can be changed by another shining a different light at another angle. I was feeling really blue, but I saw things differently. It has definitely made a difference. Inworld or real life, we need the perspective of others to guide us sometimes. If it weren’t for others, we would get stuck in our own head. It’s important to see a new angle or a different idea–even learn how to do something differently. It’s how we grow as human beings. My friend reminded me that sometimes we put our own emotions into what we read. And I think she’s absolutely right. Any way, on to shopping…
To help me relax, I went to N21. I bought this lovely dress from Mossu called Precious Dress in beige. Despite N21 being over, most stores do put those items on the market place and/in their main store. I hope second life finds you and lifts you up in the most saddest of times, because we all need respite.
As always,
Be kind to yourself and others—you never know what the other person is going through behind the monitor.
Much love,
Violet XOXO
Credits.

Dress–Mossu –Precious Dress by Stephen (akirakiyoi)
Hair–Exile–Flickering lights by Kavar Cleanslate
Lipgloss–Izzies–Daphne Sheer lipgloss by Izzie Button
Eyeshadow–Izzies–Metallic Eye by
Izzie Button

Kody

Tux–Deadwool— Peak TUX by Masa Plympton
Ears–Mandala–steking Ears by 菊之介王子 (kikunosuke.eel)
Hair– Stealthic — Like Lust by Hunter (stealthic)

 

Freedom

 

Freedom

“Pursuit and seduction are the essence of sexuality. It’s part of the sizzle.” Camille Paglia

I’ve been waiting to write this blog for awhile now. I was searching for words in my head and thinking about what to say. I knew the title from the start. I know what to say because it’s all on the tip of my tongue. But knowing what to express and being able to express it are two totally different things. It’s a battle that I’ve fought with my entire life.

I named this blog freedom. Sometimes second life gives people the freedom that they have always sought. It’s here that I found bravery. It is here that I learned it’s okay for me to be me. And it’s also here that allowed me to slowly shed the skin of self hatred and expectation.

I needed freedom like I needed water. I had a few friends long ago who were brave enough to be themselves in all worlds. I looked up to them at times. I was jealous of them and I envied them. But I was also incredibly happy for them too–all at the same time. Being human is tough sometimes with all those emotions floating around.

I needed the freedom to take this picture. I also needed the freedom to say that I was Bisexual in this world….all worlds really–pansexual is always up for debate with me, but for now it’s that box that I fit into in rl–but like my pics state humans don’t belong in boxes. We’re more complex. However, this is not a title that I have declared until this year. I was incredibly uncomfortable with who I was as a person. I can’t shout it from the mountain tops in real life to my blood related family, but I can definitely shout it in my second life.

Despite my recent acceptance, I had one very regretful fight inworld with a friend. I have always felt remorseful for that fight. It all stemmed from things about me. I held deep seeded shame. I wasn’t okay in my own skin. And I needed time to be okay, which sometimes takes more time than people realize. They only saw me as rude and defensive. Maybe I was. I wanted so badly to explain those feelings, but I couldn’t. I didn’t want to tell them that I was ashamed and embarrassed. I wanted to explain why, but I was afraid my friend would assume that I rejected them—because I was rejecting myself. I was definitely in a pickle.

In my rl childhood home, LGBTQAI topics were never discussed. It wasn’t an option. It wasn’t a choice (not that being who you are is a choice). I couldn’t declare it, without rejection from family. Growing up that way had a deep impact on so many things. I never declared my sexuality. If people made the assumption of straight, I never corrected them. Looks can always be deceiving. I’m guilty of explaining too much, but in a repressed household—explanations can be damning. So yeah, I explain a lot because it’s freeing to do so.

I finally said the things in this blog that I have always wanted to say, but never had the courage to–until now. And I myself am learning to be proud of the person that I am and not shameful. One day, I know that shame will leave my soul and acceptance of myself will be right there waiting for me—and I know that the people in second life have definitely been part of that path and I am forever grateful.

Speaking of friends inworld, I have a friend of a friend who’s a designer and made this really hot lingerie for Collabor88. In the ad, there are wings, but the outfit does include a hud to hide them. My friend with the red, low back and short dress bought it from the Kinky event. I really enjoy these two events and usually go broke. So I highly recommend both. If you find these outfits to be hawt, check my credits down below.

As always, be kind to one another and to yourself.

Cheers,

Violet XOXO

Credits

Me with the dark hair

Hair–Magika–Fool For Love–Sabina Gully
Eyepatch–::Supernatural::–Circe headband and eyepatch, sold together by Sombria Baily–ROMP Nov 2017
Head–LeLutka –Simone by Thora Charron
Gloves, and lingerie–Elivah–Runa’s collection by e l i a v a h ღ (eliavahazaleia)–Collabor88
Eyeshadow–ItGirls –Goddess shadow appliers by Annie Jolifaunt
Lipstick–The Studio Exposure –Dramatic by A S H K E Z E N N (ashamti)
Nail Polish–Alme—black and white shiny by Chloe Electra (chloeelectra)
Skin–DeeTalez–Jolie by deetalez.com (steffi.villota)

Pose–Infiniti –The Sweetest Pose by Brandi Monroe–ROMP Nov 2017

Boots–Reign–Marylin by KENADEE REIGN (kenadeecole)

Location–My house

 

The Blond

Rings–Yummy–Dark Magic RIng Set by Polyester Partridge–C88 Nov 2017
Head–Catwa–Lona by Catwa.Clip (catwa.clip)
Eyes–L’Etre–Real Eyes by Dᴀᴠɪᴅ Cᴏᴏᴘᴇʀ (dam1710)
Body–Maitreya –Lara by Onyx LeShelle
Hair–Rama Salon –Kendall Hair by Katarina Monk– At FaMESHed Nov 2017
Dress–Sweet Thing–Charisma by Aya (ayashula)–Kinky Nov 2017
Shoes–Reign–Maaike heels by KENADEE REIGN (kenadeecole)–old gacha item, availability limited.

Skin–Lola–L’Etre — by David Cooper (dam1710)